Rise and Shine!

I WANT TO BE A DIFFERENT. NOT SAME AS THE OTHERS. CAUSE I HAVE MY OWN DREAM THAT I BELIEVE IN. AND I DON'T BLAME THOSE WHO DON'T BELIEVE IN THEIRSELVES. It's ONLY all about me to how I can push my self and run with confidence. Lately, I'm just sitting in without no effort to make a little dream come true. Am I a couch potato person? Yes you can say that. Am I the person who is living in my dream but with many fears to step forward? Yes true. I'm too coward with all of the stuff that gonna happen next. That sucks huh? Yup. Sometimes I said to my self, "Hey wake up! you can do better than this. You can do more than this." It was a big slap for me to wake up when I've been dreaming something only in my bedtime. How possible I did it when I'm still young and I have tons of energy to do some MORE and IMPORTANT than this. I turned back cause I felt like, "these people, those people" have more ability but I don't. If I could say, I'm just a balloon that can't fly high to the sky. So when people is already up there, I'm still stuck in a tree or people's hand who hold the balloon. Why am I really NOT doing everything I want just beacause I'm afraid of having no ability?! I have to move forward. I must have something, I just don't know how to start and to use it. And most of all build my confidence first. I want a change in life. I'm not going to close my eyes for not seeing people who already run fast in front of me. But I will open my eyes to catch them cos I missed a lot of things thay I shouldn't miss. Rise and Shine baby!!!

AU REVOIR!

Mon Anniversaire

Allô tout le monde.. I'm so blessed because of my birthday celebration on 19th July. Praise the Lord I'm 19 years old now. Many things that I really grateful for. Most of all cause God still loves me and He gave me another life on my day. He let me to breathe everyday, that's the amazing part that I could enjoy and thankful every single day in my whole life. And I can still being around my family and my best people who love me, that's making me feel so blessed and truly happy with things that is going through everyday. And the best part on my birthday was a little surprise that my besties made for me. I was actually had a feeling that they were going to give me a surprise at midnight, but I just didn't think about it alot cause I didn't want to feel dissapointed if they didn't do it lol. But omg they did it for me! And they also came at midnight! they sneaked in to my room with a little choco cake and candles. Oh I felt like want to scream that I really love my buddies! and my happines came again in the morning when I woke up, I got a medium size of tiramisu cake from my mom and brother. I was speechless cause I wasn't expected this too much. But yeah that was amazing. And at night I was going to eat dinner to celebrate my birthday but I think God had another plan for me, yeah suddenly at afternoon my brother got an accident when he went to play golf. Yup the right-door car was damaged and the right-window was also broken. But thank God there was nothing happen to my bro. So we cancelled for my dinner celebration. Well a lesson that I learned was "Everything is not always going as you want, you can plan everything but still God will decide that happen or not." First, I complained to God why this happened to me and the worst part was on my birthday, I didn't understand and I kept asking. But the second thought I realized I knew God has another plan for me. So I said to my self to be grateful of everything that happened on. Yeah there you go some photos of my cakes and present. woot woot

Au Revoir! ♥

A Good Talented

Tex Saverio (26 years old), is one of the best talented designer that came from Indonesia. Of course as an Indonesian I'm so proud because she is the only one young designer that made a beautiful and great outfit for LADY GAGA for her photoshoot on Harper's Baazar US magazine! He also has mentioned on Cocoperez.com

CLICK HERE

Perez said "We can't help but think of McQueen when looking at this dress". Well, I agree though!

CLICK HERE

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Photoshoot!

Allô blogger I'm back again after long time I lost my time to spend writing things on my blog. So I come up with some photos that I took a few days ago with my two friends as the model, it's Patricia and Ola. Feeling so grateful cause I didn't have to pay them to be the model lol. Actually this photoshoot is just more for fun, not too serious. Because of this is not my first photoshoot, I'm so eager to have another one again. Don't know why, but I felt so happy when I took a pic of thing or someone. And also when I edit those photos one by one. It's very fun for me. YUP, I extremely need to buy my own camera. So I don't have to use my brother's! lol. Hopefully soon. So these are my photoshoot:

Model: Patricia

Model: Ola

Au Revoir!

I LOST my confidence!

Here I am with my fears and my tears. I smile outside, but I cry inside. I laugh outside, but I scream out inside. It seems like I'm strong enough of being around people, but actually I'm so weak inside. I've been keeping this just to myself, I didn't share to people, my mom or even God. That was the problem I think. I lost my confidence for like a few days ago. I had a big struggle with myself. Yes I was wrong cause I saw people with my head down. I felt something bad that I can't tell you here. I know everyone has weakness. There is none of people is perfect. I should learn from people that didn't get a great chances like I did. I should have realized from the beginning. And thank God I have my mom. She is such a good bestfriend. She told me, I need to trust myself and you will reach what you have did. And of course pray to God is needed. There is no solution if you keep your fears but you didn't tell Him. He is a good listener. He won't tell your secret to anyone, and the biggest thing is He will give you a BIG SHOOT at the right time and you don't even know when. You need to believe it. Don't keep your head down but keep your head up. People don't look you cause of your weakness but cause your heart. So make yourself confident. And yes my problem solved! Thank you mom, Thank You Lord! AU REVOIR!

MouseHead in action!

Deadmau5 <3

NRichie

Nicole Richie in Harper's Bazaar March 2011 Russia

Flawless

New Passion

Can't get enuff to this stuff! I'm so down to buy a new one. Hopefully soon! :)

Grammy's award

Last night, I just watched grammy's award until I fell asleep and sadly I did not see Rihanna's performance with drake :( That sucks! Ok let's chit chat about how was all the actress looked like on the red carpet! Here we gooo

J.Lo looked perfectly glamorous with long sleeved minidress by Emilio Pucci and her swarovski clutch.

This Glee Co-star Naya Rivera looked amazing with her hair hidden in the back. 4 stars for her dress! And I'd love to make mine like her!

Katy perry's beautiful gown by Giorgio Armani with a swarovski crystal. Love her wings to! She looked GORGEOUS!

Ashi Studio minidress. It looked very simple with only 2 colors black and white. I can say she looks nice!

Nicole Kidman walked in the red carpet with Jean Paul Gaultier gown.

Her gown is totally unique like always by Jean Paul Gaultier

Gwyneth Paltrow and Beyonce were looked like a real sisters. Their blonde hair and with similar dress cuts and the color too!

Be careful the leopard walked in the red carpet. Yes it is Nicki minaj. I don't know how to say. Maybe it only looked good for Nicki lol!

The last one, I HATE Miley Cyrus gown! It's just NOT really fit for her. Looked bigger and she looked like a fat girl.

So my opinion and it might be look nice on me is Naya Rivera's gown! I love how simple her dress with simple color and hair! Of course the worst one is Miley's gown LOL. So see you at another award events. Feel free to put comment on my post. AU REVOIR.

HAPPY vals day!

Actually I'm not the type of girl who REALLY celebrate valentine's day. But as we know this day 14 february is very special for people around the world except people who not really interested in and hate this day. Well I don't give an attention to those people. And all we know this day known as a history click here. For me this day is special although it's a lil bit not exactly an important thing. But I don't say careless to this day, I'm just going to say we can love people everyseconds, everyminutes, everyhours in a day. And I think this day also has the best part, that we can always remember people around us who really love us sincerely. So buy some flowers or chocolates or some gifts to someone you love, your parents, boy/girlfriends or maybe your enemies lol. Make them smile and happy around you! HAPPY VAL'S DAY peeps!! AU REVOIR.

Stay strong friend!

We never know when we will die in the future. You, me and us never know! And the hardest thing is when you will lose someone who you really love so much in this life. And they suddenly gone without saying anything and we couldn't be there when they felt the pain inside. We couldn't see their faces for the last time, and held tight their hands, hugged and kissed them, and saw their smile. OH what a precious things to do for the last time. Anyway, life is too short, so make something great in this life, be a good person wherever you are and whatever you do. Time is going so fast. we all never know about what will be happen in the next 2 seconds, minutes, hours, years. And for my friend who lost someone her love, God has a super great plans for your family,and you are a tough girl and make him proud of you :)

Ecclesiastes

3:11 God has made everything fit beautifully in its appropriate time, but He has also placed ignorance in the human heart so that people cannot discover what God has ordained, from the beginning to the end of their lives.

Get married when you 18?

When christmas on dec, I came back to my hometown for spending my whole christmas day and new year’s eve with family and friends. Once night, me and my friends thought about something that we just remembered. Yeah one of my friend tied knot on october. But we couldn’t go to her wedding’s party because we were school in another city. So yeah we couldn’t. Then we came to her house and just wanted to say congrats to the newlyweds. Yup we got a little shocked when he said “this is my HUSBAND” hmm sounds so damn awkward. When you 18 the one you would tell to your friends is “this is my BOYFRIEND” haha. But I totally understood about it altough it still sounds weird till now lol. She told us about anything! It was not a secret anymore for those two couples. Yeah she shared a story about when she did ‘that thing’ and blah blah blah. Oh yeah maybe for us that could be a knowledge or not exactly? Well we were curious. But suddenly I just wanted to throw up. You know, that was a totally sensitive thing between you and your man. How could you tell about that in front of us? Anyway that was a long nice story. We really got attention to her story haha. And that was funny cuz my friends had a really curious-faces. Yup I could read those faces lol! And questions was spinning around through my head at that time. You know we are still young. We have a lot of things to do in this world. We have chances. We have anything that you want to reach, just pick what things you wanted. Then get that shit guys! But when you get married, oh gosh some parts of your life is gonna be a big deal for you. When you want to do something crazy with your friends, flirt with handsome guys, or sleep with your mom when your feeling bored or sad, and sometimes be like a big baby when you want it haha. Oh anyway that would be hard to be happen when you get married. What you should do is just focus on your family that you just built with you partner of life. And seriously, that’s such a heavy thing to do when we are still 18. Only a tough and truly independent girl can do it, I guess so. Everyone has a different thought right? Well I think this is not a totally big problem because we have choises in this life. And when you decided something, you couldn’t regret it. Cause in this life, there is no previous or stop button. You need to face it. AU REVOIR